Sunday, September 16, 2012

Out of Time, Not Chances

Finally with a new job and a new neighborhood settled after an arduous search for both, I turn myself toward the extra things I have been noncommittal towards in my state of flux. Board invitations, freelance projects, volunteer responsibilities, all. It’s an honest juggling act to balance these things with the rest of life. 

My sister, gone from us now almost two years, taught me the true meaning of service. I feel her absence in my life, and the particular absence of that inner richness that only comes from true devoted service to another. But I find myself suddenly weighing all my new commitments against my time, energy and health. I want to add the volunteering and the this and the that—only two or three hours a week, I tell myself. But I fear overextending myself mentally and physically, and struggling with health constraints amid a strict calendar. It’s a dilemma that I have doodled and fawned over for a few weeks before realizing two things:

  • I’m no use to anyone anywhere if I’m worn out, exhausted, sick, cranky, or otherwise spent from trying to do everything.

  • My yearning to serve might be utilized just as well by practicing deeper service to the people already in my life: colleagues, family, friends, neighbors.

Sometimes we have even more stringent boundaries with the people that inhabit our daily lives simply because they are the ones that have direct access to our vulnerabilities and emotions. Offering two hours a week to a stranger is much less daring in some ways than offering deeper attention, less judgement, or more compassion to the people we interact with at home and at work.

There are certainly times in our lives when volunteerism is a health necessity. When we find ourselves with too much time on our hands due to unemployment, illness recovery, or any circumstance that leaves us too often in our own heads and feeling isolated and lonely. That is when we most need to step outside our comfort zone and reach out to folks that are willing to have us simply because they need the extra hand.

Either way there seems an endless supply of chances to serve one another, if we want it.

Friday, September 14, 2012

Transgression

originally posted on hedgeword.com, March 2012 

Last week I picked up the original Swedish film, The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo from my neighborhood library. When the globally-successful books by Stieg Larsson were all the rage, I had pretty much ignored them, as I characteristically tend to do when anything becomes a blowup shooting star like that. (Harry Potter had been out for 8 years before I even looked at it.) But I ran across the tattoo girl in the library and thought, what the heck.

At that point I was only vaguely aware that the narrative centers around a punk-styled young women and that the author had apparently witnessed a gang rape in his youth and had always regretted not doing anything to help, thus resulting in this balls out character Lisbeth Salander.

Within the first fifteen minutes of the film I found myself watching a horrific, graphic, violent rape scene. It was like watching a train wreck the way I couldn’t look away. When the scene was over and I became aware of what I’d just seen and that I felt a full-body nausea, I turned the film off. Period. I returned it to the library as quickly as I could, in some desperate attempt to get the thing out of my house (out of my mind). But my mind reverted to it frequently thereafter, painfully, like a nightmare that you just can’t shake in the morning.

How does employing and exhibiting graphic violence against women in film, aka entertainment, do anything but perpetuate graphic violence against women?

Even the idea of an author glorifying such violence while claiming to oppose it, seems suspect. But reading is not watching. Reading is a particular kind of imaginative experience. But for the filmmakers choices could be made–can be made– about how to include delicate material and the choice in this case was to lavish in the gruesome cruelty of rape and violence.

We as a culture condone this. We condone it and allow it by buying the tickets to the movies, by not thinking twice about what we’ve seen, by not voicing our opposition. Culturally we find it morally unacceptable to include depictions of molestation or rape of children, or necrophilia. These things may be alluded to or danced around but they are not depicted.

So why is it that we sanction violence against women?

I was discussing this with my sister-in-law and she mentioned a segment of a bell hooks documentary, Cultural Criticism and Transformation, where hooks is discussing the brutal murder of Nicole Simpson and the subsequent OJ Simpson trial. hooks brings up the concept of “the spectacle” from Guy Debord’s Society of the Spectacle (that I had recently begun reading, and there will be much more on that later), wondering how she could watch the trial and the turning of the real-life murder into bright and shiny media hype or race issue or a class issue or something for people to discuss over their pedicures, without feeling that she was “colluding” in the violence done against this woman, Nicole Simpson.

hooks was asked on Good Morning America to give her response to the trial and all she said was this:

“The only thing I really know about the OJ Simpson case, is that it began and ended with male violence.”

In the short video segment hooks makes a very insightful, eloquently-stated argument. I invite you to watch it.


If we as a society want to live in a present and move into a future where our daughters and neighbors are safe and respected– where human life is sacred and honored–how can we continue to condone the constant advocation of violence against women in our entertainment? We pay for those movie tickets and DVD rentals. We sit around watching those channels. And when these despicable human atrocities are depicted, do we say a word against them? Do we stand up for ourselves and the world we want to live in? Or do we shrug and say, “Well, that’s just how it is.” It is this way because we allow it to be.

There is no benign depiction of violence. Wherever and whenever violence exists at all, it is feeding on itself out in the world, through us. Only we have the power to change that.

5 Ways to Take Responsibility for Your Own Health

originally posted on 365Seeds.com, February 2011


The only real way to begin lowering healthcare costs and incidents of disease (particularly in the US) is for each of us to take responsibility for our own health and the health of our families. It sounds simple, but not so in a Western culture where hospitals, overworked doctors, insurance companies, and pharmaceutical companies all claim to know what’s best for our health. Sadly, this imbalance can only happen because we are getting increasingly more ill and so evermore willing to hand over the reigns to what is actually rightfully ours: health and well-being. Here are five foundational ways each of us can take back the reigns to our own sustainable health:

1) Sit down.

Meditation not only calms the mind, lowers heart rate and blood pressure, and reduces anxiety, as proven for centuries and recently in scientific testing; but meditation brings us in tune with our bodies and emotions. We begin to feel the subtle changes of a muscle or a mood as we practice meditation, and this becomes a very accurate scale alerting us when something is out of balance. The human body constantly makes changes in order to maintain homeostasis in all the cell and organ systems. When we tune into our bodies and minds, we can decipher the minute signals being sent to us before they become full-blown colds, migraines, tumors, or disease. We begin to act accordingly to help our body in its balancing process, taking stress off of an already overtaxed system. And the underlying benefit is a renewed relationship to our bodies, one that is based on mutual respect, instead of an incessant fear that it will turn against us at any minute in the form of cancer or heart attack.

To meditate: Sit in a quiet place, in a comfortable straight-backed position. Take a few deep breaths, then settle in to following your breath as it moves in and out through your nose. Do this in whatever way seems most comfortable, either just follow the touch of breath on your upper lip, or the rise and fall of your ribcage, or speak a small sound in mind with each inhale and exhale. “So-hum” is a common one. When you have thoughts, that’s fine. Simply notice the thought and go back to following your breath. This is just to get you started; but set a timer for 5 minutes, 10, whatever you can manage. And try it at your desk, on the train, waiting in a line. It’s a practice that takes on many levels over time and the physical benefits are vast.

2) Subtract and Add.

Discontinue eating sugar and pre-packaged foods. All forms of refined sugar are highly disruptive to the human system. When you eat whole fruit, you are getting the appropriate amount of fiber your body needs to deal with the sugar in that fruit. Fruit juice, high-fructose corn syrup, cane sugar, agave, etc,... exclude these from your diet. Remove ready-made foods, frozen meals, boxed foods, and the other 80% of the grocery store that has been prepared by someone else, from your diet. This is a grand start! Begin adding a variety of fresh vegetables and green leafy ones to your meals. Fresh vegetables and greens from your local farmer’s market are the most rich in vitamins and enzymes. Do what you can. Start by picking up a vegetable at the grocery store that you have never cooked before. Make it a fun thing with your children. Who can find the best recipe for this such-and-such? Subtract and add. These simple beginning steps to better nutrition will speak for themselves. I guarantee you will notice the changes. Especially if you’ve been meditating!

3) Write Along.

Begin a food/mood journal. Just grab a notebook and keep it in your kitchen or at the table. Write down what you eat and what kind of mood you are in. Stop back by later and note how you feel, again note your mood. Do this in whatever manner works easiest for you. If you have children, make it a food/mood drawing pad and let everyone express how they feel. Most of our behaviors and choices, especially food behaviors, are ruled by our moods and few of us are in touch enough with ourselves to realize what’s going on. Here is another place meditation will serve you well. After a period of time, say 3- 6 weeks, if not sooner, you will begin to notice certain patterns. These patterns can reveal many things that only you will properly decipher about yourself, but among them will be emotional eating behaviors, allergies and sensitivities, food addictions, fatigue, etc. You may even notice arthritis or rosacea flareups; these are often exacerbated by certain foods. Food addiction may sound remote, but few of us escape this phenomenon. Whatever food you must have every day, that is probably where your addiction lies. Food addictions tend to cause energetic and behavior disruptions that we are completely unaware of because usually we have become so accustomed to them. Food addictions often align with food allergies and sensitivities, and are a worthy indication of something awry in your bodily system, which may herald a larger health problem down the road.

4) Say Maybe to Drugs.

Doctors are often brilliant and astute caretakers, but do not take your doctor’s word as law. Doctors are consultants on your health journey, not the all-knowing Oz. Always look behind the curtain to see what you’re dealing with. Look into the drug they suggest. Look into the surgery. Find out what are the pros and cons from several sources, not just the pharmaceutical company information list or sites that are sponsored by said companies. Hear from folks who have taken it or done it. And look into alternative therapies. “Alternative medicine” is usually something that has been practiced for centuries somewhere else. And more often now, allopathic medicine includes alternative training. Again, talk to people who have tried it for your similar symptoms. You have to do the research. Then you can make a choice you feel confident in, which is empowering. We are more confident in ourselves and our lives when we execute control over our choices. This reality can singularly increase health and wellbeing in each and every one of us.

5) Remember the Good Times.

Recently a frazzled friend sat bemoaning how busy her life had become and that even when she took an occasional day off, she had no idea what to do with herself. She had no idea what she enjoys, what relaxes her, or how to unplug. To some degree we can all relate to this story or know someone we love who fits the bill. It’s a sad happening in a very amped-up, busy culture. Our socio-economic system expects a lot from each of us and we push ahead to meet the mark. At what cost? Diabetes, heart disease, cancer, auto-immune disease, Alzheimer’s; these are a handful of the issues plaguing us and our families. Am I suggesting that disease is related to lack of joy? Yes, I absolutely am. And I am not alone. Stress-management, physical activity, sunshine (vitamin D), happier relationships, stronger communities, mental stimulation-- these are a few of the side-effects of enjoying life. That means doing some of the things you enjoy on a regular basis. Sit down and make a list of five things you enjoy doing. If you can’t think of any, list five things you enjoyed doing once in your life. Then make time in your week to do it. Take a painting class, join a volley ball league, go bowling, take a walk with a friend, join a knitting circle, research a historic topic that gets your blood burbling. Do something to cultivate the innate joy in you. I’ll warn you, this joy is contagious. Your mom will notice. Your spouse will want to hug you. Your kids will want to ask you questions. And not only do enjoyable activities have health benefits, they also help us keep our priorities in perspective. When we are constantly working or dealing with “things” we become trapped in repetitive mind loops and behaviors that have damaging effects on physical and emotional health, and just downright make life less meaningful. And that’s a shame, because every life has meaning.

This list really offers 5 doors. Doors open to you to take responsibility for your health in a way that runs deeper than discussable here. The discovery is endless and real. The body and the heart likes what is behind these doors, I promise. And if you feel discouraged or stuck, that’s to be expected too! Because real change happens over time, not as quickly as we often demand. Some change happens in a blink, sure; other change takes years. Uncontrollable outside factors do exist that affect our health detrimentally, but plenty of tools also exist within our own grasp that we leave unused. Investment of your time and energy in responsible health belongs only to you. Try it. Teach your children to do it. And be well.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Picking Back Up

To pick things back up here I'll begin by posting two articles from the last two years that were published elsewhere. Hopefully they'll act as a bridge from then to now. Happy to be back!